I think, I write and I live

I have thought that how wonderful it could be if I were an onlychild at home. In that case, I could request and do things as Ilike. My parents would focus on me only; furthermore, I would notneed to worry about being a good model for my younger brother whichhas always been the trigger of countless quarrels.

Now, the dream came true because he is away home in Maoli forstudying. So, I became the 'only child' here in Taichung. However,I did not have the excitement I dreamt before. Instead, pressureand too much focus keep pressing me into depression. I wonder howmuch can I endure. Although the beginning is out of kindness andcare, I need some privacy or even rights to decide my future.

Plz